Missing you

It's been three weeks since Ezlin and the family left Khartoum. I must say that life's a bit different now. For one, I no longer have little munchkins calling me (at the top of their lungs, if I may add) "Auuuuuuunn-ttttttieeeee Baaaarrrr-nnneeeeeyyyyy".

 

Heh.

 

And no more polite requests for my iPhone when we go out.

 

It's a but quiet now though. We (Dodi, Rawi, Daud and me) would go out to buy our groceries and come back immediately after.

 

Yeah, we still cook and have dinners together (mostly at either my place or Dodi's) but we no longer hang around for movie nights.

 

These days, lepas makan, we would just balik rumah masing-masing and do our own stuff. (I would read or jaga my "ladang" - Hay Day. Heh.)

 

But such is life. You meet people who colors your life. And then they leave. Or you leave them. After all, nothing is permanent in this world kan.

 

So yeah. Life's different now. A bit quieter. Kalau dulu, Isba (or Ezlin) rajin ajak makan kat luar because the kids just need some fresh air. These days, I think I stay at home most of the time.

 

Terawih (and buka puasa) at the surau pun cam slightly different this year. Quiet. Eat and go home. (Sigh. So much so that I would rather buka puasa kat rumah sambil tengok Masterchef on TV.)

 

Well anyway... here's walking down the lane with Ezlin, Isba and the kids - Ilham, Ikhlas and Imaan. 

 

Sambutan raya bersama Geng Tulips last year. Sanggup pakai lawa lawa... padahal we live only a few doors away from each other. Heh. Diva lah katakan..

Midnight snack at Munchies with the kids. Selamba je keluar ngan pajamas. Heheh.

Ada je photo opportunity during the makan-makan session.

Ilham and me go hand-in-hand. I wonder if he will remember me when he grows up.. hmmm.

I think she's growing up to be a diva.. heheh. Sebab terlalu banyak hang out with us, divas. Hahah.

Ni masa nak hantar Ezlin balik cuti. Saja je. After the send-off, we (me, Dods and Izman) went to look for dinner.

This was Ramadan last year. Imaan pun temankan Aunty Arni berbuka puasa at the surau. This year, Aunty Arni buka sorang-sorang je kat rumah.

Ada je aktiviti dulu. Cari carpet lah. Pergi supper lah... heheh.

Makan. Gambar. Makan. Gambar. Heheh.

This was taken during my first Ramadan in Khartoum (in 2012). The kids are still so small masa tu. Sigh. How time flies..

The inaugural picture of Geng Tulips. Taken in May 2013.

Imaan is so tall already. Picture taken early this year. Maybe next time Aunty Arni jumpa Imaan, I dah tak larat nak carry.

So yeah.. two wonderful years. I've enjoyed every dinner, supper, makan-makan at my place and jalan-jalan with them.

When I see the kids get all cranky sometimes, I realize that I am so not ready to become a mum. Not a single mum lah. I don't think I have the patience to deal with kids yet.

But then, sometimes, looking at the kids, I yearn for my own too. They (the kids) bring joy in a special way. Like Imaan can get all cranky because she's sleepy but we still dragged her out for dinner.. tapi lepas dapat pink ice cream, her mood can change terus and suddenly she's the happiest girl in the world.

Such simple things can make them smile. Amazing.

And when I see the siblings play and laugh with each other.. made me realize that adults are too boring. I mean, how often do you see adults laughing their heart out? Heheh.

I miss the kids. I just hope they won't forget me. Heheh. Maybe I should just process the photos and frame them kan.. so they will never forget their Aunty Arni. Heheh.

Happy weekend semua!

xoxo