A fake profile - Catfish

You're not who I think you are?

Thanks to our Mr IT, Daud, we have about 20 TV channels, I think. Including the sports channels. And sometimes, when I just want to relax and not think too much, I would watch the MTV channel.

MTV's fun, really. Disaster date, Teen Crib and Plain Jane are amongst my favorite shows. I also watch Catfish, occasionally.. cuma I don't quite get it why people try so hard to be someone they are not.

In Catfish, these two guys, Nev and Max, will talk to people who have "online relationships". And what they do is to check whether the people who are having these online relationships are real or not.

So far, I've never seen a Catfish episode where the girls / guys featured are really who they are online. In the Catfish episodes, there's also one party who would assume someone else's identity and "lie" in the "relationship".

Senang citer, it's always pompuan / lelaki gemuk yang gunakan gambar some hot girl / guy as their profile picture and they would pretend to be that person and have a relationship with someone. And the Catfish crew will try and meet this person and finally reveal that these people menipu sebenarnya.

And here's where the drama will start. This perempuan / lelaki gemuk ni will cry and say it's hard to be them. People will not want to be friends with fat, ugly people.. so it's easier to use someone's picture. Someone hot and thin..

Then they will say that apart from the picture, they are "real". The conversations with their 'online partners' are real. Their feelings are real. "I'm so sorry for lying.. but whenever we chat online, that's who I am.. I never lied about the things I've said.. about my feelings for you.." The girl would weep as she confessed to her 'online boyfriend' and the Catfish crew.

Well sorry lah. For me, it's still a lie.Why do  you need to lie in the first place?

I could never understand fakes. I know it's not easy making friends when you're ugly. Or fat. People laugh at you. They make fun at you and make jokes about your ugliness.

So okay. The world can be a bit unfair sometimes. Some people would only go for looks. But really, not everyone's like that!

I am hunched, I have a crooked spine, my back is full of scars and my body is not proportionate. Yet, I am always surrounded by wonderful people who don't mind to be seen with me. Eh. Actually, I'm always surrounded by GORGEOUS people who don't mind letting me be a part of their group.

They don't mind walking next to hunched-back me. They are not embarrassed to be seen with me, walaupun I have a hump at my back. They accepted me for who I am, normal or not.

So I don't understand when I meet "fake" people. People who try so hard to fit in. People who act differently, thinking they would have more friends if they were to act in a certain manner.

Isn't it tiring to be someone you're not?

And how can you "fake" your personality for long? Sooner or later, people will see your true colors, kan? Like sooner or later, a show like "Catfish" will disclose that you actually weigh 20kg more than what you proclaimed on your "online profile".

Ntah lah. Honesty is the most important trait for me. I really don't mind being with someone who's not so financially stable.. or someone who's "big".. or someone who's bald or boroi. But I cannot be with someone who lies. Because I find it tiring to be with someone who lies a lot.. sebab I would always have to analyze and figure out what he/she really meant. Tiring, really.

I like straightforward relationships. You accept me for who I am, humps bumps and all.. and I will accept you for who you are. After all, we're not perfect kan. So it's better to just accept the flaws.

Be honest with me. If I suck, tell me. You don't have to say nice things in front of me and bitched about me behind my back.

So itu lah. Sangat I tak faham citer Catfish ni. Tak faham minah-minah yang guna gambar orang lain and pretend to be that person. Sampai bila nak menipu ni?

My motto is simple... I am who I am. Hang out with me and be my friend if you think you can really tolerate me. And if you can't? Well, it's okay. There are over 6 billion people in this world. We don't have to be friends with every single one of them.

I know that some people will like me. Some will not. Honestly, I don't lose sleep over people who don't like me. I will not change who I am, just to fit in. Sebab kita hidup ni untuk sapa sebenarnya? Are we living a life, fulfilling someone else's needs or dreams?

Okay lah. Enough rambling. Nak tidur sebenarnya.. but I'm just too tired to sleep. So I figured, I might as well blog, read a little and maybe I'd fall asleep soon.

It's been a long day.. It's Saturday and it's supposed to be my weekend.. but I already feel like it's a weekday already. Okay lah. Nak tidur. Niteeee......