How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days

Does this work?

Ho-kay.. I watched this movie a few nights ago, and was suddenly inspired to try this out.

In this movie, Kate Hudson took a bet to see if she could make Matthew McConaughey dump her in 10 days. She did everything that a girl's not supposed to do. Heheh... 

Of course, movies being movies, she failed lah.. and the two of them (Hudson and McConaughey) ended up falling in love with each other.

But I'm interested to try it out in real life.

You see, there's this guy (back in Malaysia) who's trying to hit on me. So far, he's been very nice and polite lah... but the thing is, I am just not interested in anyone right now. (Macam malas nak layan semua orang.. boleh? Not that I don't want to get married ke.. and I know that my biological clock is ticking and all.. but right now, I cam malas nak cakap pasal kawen. Heck, I might just skip the whole marriage thing and adopt je..)

Well anyway, this guy's really sweet lah. Occasionally, he would send me songs (via Whatsapp) and he always checks on me - to see if I dah makan, dah tidur, dah bangun etc.

I have responded politely lah.. but still, I think it's unfair to lead him on. Firstly, he's just over 7,000km away. We've met briefly last year but that's about it. I don't even want to think about marriage now.. so you can imagine my interest at marrying a guy I barely know.

Well anyway, I am trying out the "How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days" theories.

So far, here are the things I've done:

1. Pretend that I'm so manja..... - and so, he has been very patient and dok layan I.. even sends me songs occasionally via Whatsapp.

2. Did the drastic - I told him I wanna get married next year! Hahahah... - in all honesty, I've only 'proposed' to a guy once.. and I don't think I will do it ever again (real proposal, I mean). Anyway, when I suggested that we get married next year,he seemed kinda keen lah pulak. Haishhh. This is so not normal kan? He's supposed to be running away in the other direction already... Hmm... Tapi takpe. Slowly slowly. In fact, dia dah tak message I sangat dah.. hahahah.. maybe this is gonna work! Talking about marriage will definitely scare any guy away kan...? Hahahha.. 

3. Trying to be clingy giler...  but this one, kinda hard to do. Sebab I'm not clingy. I don't whatsapp people a lot. Mohamed, my IT guy observed that I'm constantly "online" on whatsapp. Heh. What he doesn't know is that I belong to 11 Whatsapp groups. ELEVEN! And some of them are VERY active! Kekadang tu, I tak baca pun whatsapp group chat tu. But I have to check my phone every time I have a 'red circle' (indicating a new message) because my boss is in one of the whatsapp groups. Sometimes, he will just tell me to do stuff via whatsapp. Tu yang kena check tu.

Otherwise, I won't bother to chat banyak-banyak lah. Tak larat. Unless I have things to tell that person.. then, memang ghairah lah bercerita kan... hehehe.
 
But tu lah. I am NOT clingy. I am not the kind who will check on my man... to see if dia dah makan ke, dah tidur ke, dah gi toilet ke etc.Sigh. So macamana nak jadi clingy and mengada ni?

4. Told him I'm not the same girl he met before - That I dah bertudung and tak pakai sexy-sexy lagi. And that I want a man who knows his religion. And to that, he said that he will try to leave his 'naughty' behaviors and be a better person.Haishhhhhhh...

5. Trying to be moody. - When I'm in the mood, I will layan him giler. Could talk via whatsapp for one or two hours.. tapi kekadang tu, cam right now, cam malas nak layan. So he sees me online, but I'm not responding to his messages. Told him I'm sleepy and trying to read a book..walhal sempat lagi berbalas message with one of the ladies here at the Complex (sebab dia nak minta tolong book van and of course, that ended up with a conversation on books..)

So itu lah. I am trying to do everything wrong. I thought it should be quite easy.. since I could never make a guy fall madly in love with me and nak kawen ngan I pun..

One part of me is feeling guilty for doing this. I should have just told him that one of my friends here in Sudan has fallen in love with me and wants to marry me. That should get him off my back kan.. (perhaps, this should be my last resort).

But the other part of me is saying that with the right (wrong) attitude, he should take the hint and leave me alone.

Sigh.

I'm so messed up lah.

Actually, I should give this guy a chance kan. He's nice.. not exactly the kind whom I'm looking for.. but he's nice lah. (Although I think he's just on a rebound. And he just needs someone to talk to .. and since I am thousands of miles away, he knows I'm safe. I can't hurt him much pun kan..)

The thing is, I'm just not ready for anyone lah. I'm feeling so numb. Yes, I miss having someone to manja-manja and mengadu and all. and on some days, it hurts so bad feeling so lonely and lousy... :(

But then I would think that I have been extremely picky all these while pun. I've never settled. I've had marriage proposals before and I've politely declined all of them. And I've never regretted saying "no" to them pun. In fact, they've moved on and have their own family and I'm very happy for them.

I'm such a romantic person at heart. Still believing that my wedding day will be the happiest day of my life (in shaa Allah). I will not settle for just about anyone. Let alone settle for someone I've met only once.

I've waited all these while, so what's waiting a bit more..

I want to marry someone when my heart feels it's the right thing to do. With the person who makes me feel like it's the right one.

I want to spend the rest of my life with someone whom I'm comfortable with.. someone whom I know will listen to my rambles and calms me down.. someone who can tell me what to do without being condescending.

But really right now, I just don't want to think about it (marriage) or anyone. I know my parents are worried and they kept asking if I've been dating or met anyone interesting.. but my answer has always been clipped with just a "no", refusing to even discuss about it.

A part of me is longing to be loved. But another part of me is tired lah. Tired of the emotions involved when you hang out with a person too much.

I used to believe in platonic relationships.. but I guess, to me I cannot handle being platonic with just one person. When you hang out too much with just one person, wouldn't some sort of feelings start to develop?

So right now, I don't feel like hanging out with just one guy. I'm so afraid that if I hang out with just one person, I will fall in love with him, only to realize that he doesn't feel the same way. :(

I'm now in a platonic relationship with a lot of people right now.. We're just friends who hang out with each other and watch out for each other. I don't want exclusivity because I don't want to fall for that one person, only to be told that "we're just friends".

So yeah.. back to this "KL guy" ni.. heheh.. We'll see how it goes. We've only started whatsapping each other recently.. but looking at the way things are going, I don't think this will last. Heh. I am, after all, the Master of "losing a guy" kan... hahah.

Okay lah. Nak tidur. It's almost 1am and I do have to wake up and go to work tomorrow.

Toodles!

ps./ He's supposed to be hanging out with me when I come back in Oct. We'll see lah. He's even agreed to spend time with me and my girl friends.. hehehe.. Men oh men...(I have up to Oct 10 to lose him. Helppppp.... better work harder at losing him! -- sigh.. I sound so jahat kan.. but this is better than leading him on, kan?)